COMING CLEAN (or "Jaime's Journal" if you must)

Jaime · COMING CLEAN (or "Jaime's Journal" if you must)

I thought I would start a journal. I've been doing really badly with my eating and figured I would COME CLEAN. It is no wonder why the pounds are not dropping. In fact, even though I cannot find a scale that can tell me my weight, I am probably gaining weight. I can hardly walk around the house as it is.

I've been reading the Atkins '72 version of the Atkins diet and have decided to start that diet tomorrow. Tomorrow (Sunday July 1 2007) is Canada Day here and I have decided to do Atkins 72 for one year and see how I progress.
I'm even going to start a blog just as soon as I can find a good site to blog on. (Any suggestions from you bloggers would be appreciated).
I hope I'll still be welcome here but I am pretty sure I will be. Happy

I also think I might be able to add cheese back into my diet, though the amount will be strictly limited. I had some pizza for dinner last night...okay....one LARGE pizza... (didn't feel like cooking and there is nothing in the house anyway) ....and I did not wake up stuffed up to the rafters this morning. I was only slightly stuffed up and that did not last long and I have no problems currently as I type this.

That is all. Cool

jeff

Jaime, I'm glad you started a journal. I have found that I"m much more aware of whay I eat if I have to write everythng down. If you follow Atkins 72 for a year, I'm sure you'll have great success. I have no doubt about that.

Good luck, Jaime. We looking forward to following your journey. (And of course you'll always be welcome here).

Dean

Jaime,

Your coming clean is a very important step in moving forward. You are going to succeed in the long run because of this.

Congrats on starting a journal! We are all here to support you. And, you are here to support us, too. So, always post in your journal and you will get results. The alternative is bleak, indeed.

You will always be welcome on the Bus. Cool

BTW... Google is the blog sites I'm most familiar with. Seems they have a pretty good (and free) system.

https://www.blogger.com/start

But, I'm not up on any of the others.

Let us know about your blog when you get one up.

Congrats on starting Atkins tomorrow. Remember... you WILL succeed... if you NEVER give up. Yup

Jaime

I just had a lovely breakfast of chicken wings, leftover from last night's dinner.

I am up a few pounds and retaining water from my week long feast of Ruffles potato chips. I ate a big bag every day straight for a week. Salty crunchy snacks are my poison...like sugar is to others I guess.

I gave up the diet pop and all forms of caffeine a week ago and still have a mild headache. When will it go away and why does it take me to feel better after I have given up things.

jeff

Jaime, I also sometimes have a "thing" for crunchy, salty things. Maybe keep some macadamia nuts or almonds on hand for emergencies. These can also be easy to overeat, but they are a helluva lot better than Ruffles.

Dan

Viking Dan recommends: Pork rinds dipped in mayonnaise and/or mustard. (drool)

Jaime

I was thinking about keeping pistachios or when I feel like having ruffles just grabbing the pistachios at the corner store instead....or a meat stick. They just got in these meat sticks that are pretty good and those seem to satisfy me. I could keep a bunch in the freezer I guess.

I'm not fond of almonds but I like other nuts. I don't eat peanuts however. Those just give me stomach pains.

I'm planning on keeping pretty much zero carb for a while now. I want to get rid of this water retention. It sucks.

Jaime

kateryna

Jaime, glad you decided to come clean. I do that all the time after falling off the wagon. In fact, I think I've come clean several hundred times already but I'm not giving up. Smile

My favorite snack now whenever I just have to have something crunchy and salty is PUMPKIN SEEDS. I carry them around in my purse, take them to work and it really does the trick and I don't end up eating lots. It only feels like it because of all the shelling I have to do. But it keeps me busy and occupied. I only buy the salted or unsalted not the flavoured cause they contain too many additives. Make sure you read the ingredients on the package. I saw a package today that contained wheat flour, vegetable oil and a bunch of other unpronounceable names. How they can take a great whole food that's wonderful on its own and add all that crap to it I'll never know. They must think we want it or it adds to the weight or something.

Just another option for a snack.

Jaime

kateryna

OLIVES! Forgot about those. Thanks for reminding me Jaime. Great work resisting the bread at Subway, although most breads out there are crap and don't tempt me. Now get me into an Italian or German restaurant and you have to tie my hands behind my back to keep me out of the bread basket. Needless to say I try and avoid them.

Bought some macadamias today as well. Put 12 in a baggie for work tomorrow just in case.

jeff

kateryna

Re Macadamia's

Walmart has the dry roasted, no additives but salt - 1 small bag - 227 gms (about 1/2 lb) $8.00 Cdn

Organic Roots by the University carries them but they are priced out of this world. Nice to know and remember once I win the Lotto 6/49.

Superstore now carries them in the bulk bins - raw and unsalted but sometimes they are not fresh so you need to be careful. They are affordable/reasonably priced there but can't remember off hand how much they cost.

I'd let Heather know but can't find her journal.

I took a food company to task because they didn't put an expiry date on their packages of nuts. Their policy still remains the same even though nuts are perishable and can cause food poisoning. So I don't buy that brand anymore.

Jaime · Update: Monday September 17 2007

I thought I would post an update.

I have not been on the wagon. I fell off it some time back and was run over several times by the back wheels. I've been feeling bloated, fatigued and am retaining so much water that my legs and feet are pretty painful from that.

I'm going to be starting Atkins '72 tomorrow to rid myself of the water retention and to get off the diet sodas I allowed myself to drink again.

I was doing pretty well staying away from the diet pop until Labour Day weekend, when my ex-boyfriend and I got back together after a 3 year (almost to the very day)breakup. We spent close to 4 days together and he took me to every restaurant imaginable over the entire course of the weekend. The following weekend was pretty much the same thing and I indulged in diet pepsis and am now hooked on them again. *sigh*.

My goals for the next week are:

1. Get off the diet pepsi and stick to water (with or without lemon juice) or tea only.

2. Stick to Atkins 72 until next Monday when I will set another goal to stay on Atkins 72 and so on and so on...etc etc etc.

3. Exercise a minimum of 3 times per week.

That is all for now. Glad to be back. I missed everyone and Dean..I'm sorry to hear about Klondike. Sad

Jaime

Dave

Jamie, Welcome back to the bus!

I've fallen off so many times I've lost count!

Only thing to do, is to hop back on. Sunny

kateryna

Welcome back Jaime Wine

Jaime

Jaime

jeff

Welcome back Jaime, and good luck!

Jaime

I got through today.

I ate....4 scrambled eggs with butter and garlic, for breakfast.

Had a lamb chop for lunch fried in bacon fat.

Had some ground beef fried up for dinner.

Drank a lot of water and tea.

Tomorrow is another day. Sunny

jeff

Great job, Jaime. Your food looks perfect.

kateryna

Yep looks good to me. In fact that food looks delicious to me. Great work Jaime.

Jaime

Pretty much the same day as above. I really *need* to get to the grocery store tomorrow.

I'm deep in the midst of Induction Flu and don't feel 100%. I even found myself getting drowsy while on the phone this evening with the BF.
It is a good thing he likes to talk *a LOT* because I was only in the mood for listening. LOL

Hopefully I can keep on the straight and narrow pathway, especially with this weekend coming up because we are planning to go to a fall fair on Saturday if he gets time off work.

Jaime

Well here is an incentive to stay on plan......SEX!!

I went to the ladies clinic yesterday to see about getting birth control pills
so BF and I could *further* our relationship without having to resort to *withdrawal* any longer.

So I go in and fill out all the usual paperwork that comes with this sort of thing and once that is done I get directed to the little teeny tiny examination room. It was so small you could barely throw a cat in there and because there was no step stool and I am a very large lady so I could not even go up on the table for the required pap test.

No problem there as the clinic doctor has referred me to a gyno who looks after larger ladies and i have an appt for that.

So they take my blood pressure and it turns out to be 160 over 90. Much too high to get birth control pills due to the risk of heart attack or stroke and since I've already had one heart attack I don't want another. They refuse to give me the pills and I am back on Atkins Induction as of this very morning because I *need* to get my BP reading down and I *know* Atkins will do that for me.

The BF and I will have to figure out what else to use until I am able to get my BP down enough to get birth control pills.

The clinic doctor did suggest Depo Provera but I have heard horror stories about that from other ladies who also have PCOS and used it.

jeff

Now that's what I call incentive!!! Devil

Dave

When I was really big there wasn't much I could do.

Being able to wipe my ass was my incentive. :(

I think sex is an awesome motive!

Heather

Dave

My fiancee gained her weight on Depo.

I have a nephew because my Brother and Sister-in-law thought that Depo was supposed to work. Apparently not 100% *Sigh*

Jaime

I'm not even going to bother with the Depo. I've heard it does nasty things to women who have PCOS (which I have) and I sure need a method of birth control that I know won't let me get pregnant. I've always had the best success with the pill.

Anyway I am going to join the Y tomorrow and start exercising. That should help lower my blood pressure.

Dean

Jaime!

Jessica

If it helps... my blood pressure doesn't go down unless I do cardio.

And, btw, I went back on the pill last February, and I didn't gain, in fact I lost a little more. I think low carb helps control any appetite issues.

Grin

Jaime · The November Challenge

This is what I plan on eating during the November challenge....

eggs (as many as I like)

butter-salted or unsalted (mainly to cook my eggs in or add fat to something)

lamb (mmmmm...my fav meat)

beef and it's accompanying fat

chicken and the skin

turkey

all types of fish including canned tuna and canned salmon

all types of seafood including canned

bacon (I might indulge in this once in a while)

pork (I generally do not eat pork but lately I have been looking at the price of it around here and if the price is right and it is fatty enough then I might indulge in it from time to time)

Mayonnaise (I don't eat it often but it is nice to have around when I want it)

Lard (got to get some)

avocado (not sure yet...still deciding)

An occasional snack of unsalted nuts in a appropriate portion (I probably will not indulge but I want it here as an option)

tea

spices and herbs

Water (main beverage)

diet pepsi ( only if I am out and cannot get water...otherwise it is a no go since I am trying to get away from it)

That is all I can think of for the moment. If I think of anything else then I will add to this list.

Jaime · Revised food list for the November Challenge

This is what I plan on eating during the November challenge....

eggs (as many as I like cooked in a variety of ways)

butter----salted or unsalted (mainly to cook my eggs in or add fat to something)

lamb (mmmmm...my fav meat)

beef and it's accompanying fat

chicken and the skin

turkey and the skin

In fact, any type of poultry

all types of fish including canned tuna and canned salmon

all types of seafood including canned

bacon (I might indulge in this once in a while)

Pork (I generally do not eat pork but lately I have been looking at the price of it around here and if the price is right and it is fatty enough then I might indulge in it from time to time. I will also eat ground pork)

Mayonnaise (I don't eat it often but it is nice to have around when I want it or need it)

Lard (got to get some to use in case the butter runs low)

Avocado (not sure yet...still deciding...going to check the carbs on those and then decide if I want to eat them or not)

An occasional snack of unsalted nuts in a appropriate portion (I probably will not indulge but I want it here as an option in case I have no other options)

tea

spices and herbs

Water (main beverage)

diet pepsi ( only if I am out and cannot get water...otherwise it is a no go since I am trying to get away from it and I feel it does me no benefit)

Olives, mushrooms and boston lettuce (from time to time but not all the time)

Processed meats (I am going to try to get away from those as I eat too many of them...especially hotdogs, and the sodium is bloating me up big time so I put them on here to remind myself NOT to eat them)

Alex

Hi Jaime,

Don't know what happened to you the other day, but let me hug you Comfort

Take care.

Jaime

Jaime · SUNDAY OCTOBER 28 2007

So I just woke up and today is my first 'unofficial' day of The November Challenge. I plan to get through this come hell or high water. Yup

I'm also giving up diet pepsi as of midnight last night. I had my last one at 11 pm last night. I really think the caffeine in them are affecting my sleep (as in making it difficult to fall asleep) and going across the street to the variety store to get them holds very little to no interest in me right now. They overcharge for them anyway.

Well off to get some water and have a cup of tea before breakfast (eggs).

Jaime

My first day is going pretty well. I'm still feeling pretty crappy regarding the BF situation and I seriously WANT to stress eat all the bad stuff but I am not going to. I'm stronger then that.

I've got a bit of a headache and am feeling achy so Induction flu is no doubt beginning to kick in. I took a couple of aspirins and they helped a little but not enough. I'll head to bed early tonight. That and time will help.

This is my menu for the day.....

4 large eggs scrambled in butter with 2 slices of cooked ham chopped up and mixed in. They were left over in the fridge so I figured I would use them up. I'm rethinking the whole processed meats thing after reading Dean's posts regarding Brats. (Dean...you are evil! LOL

)

I had a little snack before my nap of a few peices of cooked dark meat turkey with full fat cream cheese spread on them.

That held me over until dinner when I had 2 hamburger patties. I did put a half teaspoon of ketchup on each one and poured the fat from the pan over top.
I'm having 2 more hamburger patties right now as those 2 did not fill me up. I added a tablespoon of butter to them.

I've drank water and tea throughout the day.

No exercise for the day but tomorrow I will be totally alone in the house (woohoo!!) and plan to use my Leslie Sansone walking dvd in the morning.
I'll try the one mile walk out.

Dean

These brats do have some junk in 'em. But, at this point, I'm better off just getting back to eating carnivorously, even if I have to resort to this crap. It's gotta be better than all that flour and sugar and ice cream! Bonkers

Hey, I'm in bad shape. I aint afraid to admit it! Wink

But, hey Jaime, whatever works for you. You seem to be doing great eating cleaner foods. I'll get there at some point. Dave's way ahead of both of us. So, we'd better get it together and catch up with him! I wonder if Billi-Jean's gonna join our challenge? Perhaps jeff will join also. I can just see it now... on November 18th... "I fucked up and ate a strawberry today"...

ROTFL

Billi-Jean

Jaime, a big hug from me too!! Big Hug

hmm, it's been a looong time since my last BF (don't seem to be any single men over 30 around here! Confused

) but, yeah, words can be so damn hurtful. It's so sad how we humans tend to express our own pain so often by lashing out at those nearest to us. Sad

Hang in there through the induction flu!! You're determined to succeed so the battle's already half won! BTW, the food you're eating sounds delicious! Yup

Billi-Jean

Jaime

Jaime

All I want to do is snooooooooooze. I guess I am detoxing from the crap.

<YAWNING AND HEADING BACK TO BED>

Jaime

Here is where I fess up. LOL

Yesterday's eating went well except for the mouthful of orange juice from the jug and the 2 tbsps of peanut butter and cheese whiz (2 tbsps each btw) I mixed together and ate with a spoon from a bowl.

No exercise. I slept all day because I was feeling so sleepy until it dawned on me later that day that I had been eating a lot of turkey.

No turkey for me today. I've already had a half pound of ground beef to eat, a mouthful of OJ and am boiling eggs as I type. I'm going to have a few of those when they are done.

Dean

Jaime!

You are doing fantastic! Congrats

Dean

Jaime,

How've ya been? Heart

I guess no news is good news, since you'd be posting in the November Challenge if you were off the mark.

Congrats on stickin' to plan! Ecstatic

Come out and visit us! I need your support.

Dean

How's the Birthday Girl? Sunny

Hope all is goin' well for ya on your day! Heart

Jaime

Billi-Jean

Happy Birthday Jaime!!
Congrats

...what the ? with the BF! Confused

I really hope he shows up!
(I'm all over the place trying to make sense of the times and days from over here in Australia, so please forgive me if my birthday wishes are late!! Bonkers

)

Billi-Jean

...woooo, that cyan colour is kinda blinding!! Cool

Jaime

Billi-Jean

Oh man, Jaime!! Sad

That's friggin' awful. I wish I could come over -then we could maybe have some wine...oh what the hell, get drunk even, bawl our eyes out over BF's and then console ourselves pigging out on bacon!
I don't have a BF right now but heck, I can sure relate, so believe me I'd have no problem crying my head off with you!

Jaime

Billi-Jean

Alex

Come here girl and let us hug you:

Big Hug

Jaime

Jaime

Billi-Jean

Jaime

Well I never did get to my sisters and I never did get drunk. LOL

Anyway, I am halfway through the third day of going zero carb and I sure do not feel like eating anymore. My appetite is zilch. I feel good though.
Not as tired as I was the last two days and I have been keeping my diet pepsi intake down to one can a day.
Starting Monday I am going to try eliminating that. I don't know if I will be sucessful but I will try. I'm taking this getting back to zero carbs diet one baby step at a time in the hopes it will stick for good this time.
I've been rubbing butter on all my meats, fish and eggs after they are cooked so it is no wonder my appetite is dead right now.
I've lost a bit of water retention too. Not all but at least I don't feel it as much now.

jeff

Heather

jeff

Dean

Jaime's journal may have to be rated XXX. Shock

Jaime

Jaime

Heather

jeff

Dean

Merry Christmas, Jaime!

Wine

Jaime

jeff

I know it's rough, but hang in there Jaime.

Jaime

Heather L

The exercise thing might be an excellent idea. I know it always helps me burn off those pent up frustrations. It is like it gives your body something to do with all the negative energy.

I hope you are feeling better soon... break ups are rough. (hugs)

Heather

Karen

oh Jaime

I am so sorry for what you are going through! It will take some time to heal from this. Give yourself the time you need and be gentle with yourself. But whatever you do...don't use it as an excuse to binge..it will only make you feel worse. Stick with your neanderthin program and keep your mental clarity. Come cry on my shoulder anytime you need to! Comfort

Dean

Hey, Jaime,
Hope you are feeling better today. Sunny

Make sure to drink plenty of water and get plenty of rest these days. Yup

Oh, and for that ex ex guy that's been buggin' you...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b5H0wUo37RY Cool

Jessica

My mom always said she was going to make a record that had all the good songs when you're done with a man...

"I'm gonna wash that man right out of my hair...."

"These boots were made for walkin..."

And some others I forgot. Grin

Especially the boots one...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7OU7Nezg7Ls

Dean

Hey, that's Nancy Sinatra on the Magic Bus Jukebox again! Cool

The Bus Boot Babes must be struttin' their stuff. Devil

Heather

Karen

Jaime????

where ya been??? I hope you are doing ok!!!!!

HUGGGGS! Big Hug

COMING CLEAN (or "Jaime's Journal" if you must)

Update: Monday September 17 2007

The November Challenge

Revised food list for the November Challenge

SUNDAY OCTOBER 28 2007